I don’t know where to begin… there is just so much that I want to share and reflect upon after this incredibly rich and exciting experience. The 10 days I spent at Public Achievement’s International Youth Camp- Youth as Evaluators at Corrymeela were very intense, organic, thought-provoking, and quite enriching.
I would’ve loved to blog everyday, because there was always so much that I wanted to say, but there was just so much to do and experience that I couldn’t bring myself to wait for a turn to use the one internet-connected computer. I did however keep Journals, well… up until a certain point at least!
Well, I won’t attempt to be brief, but I guess I will just keep writing bits and pieces for the next coming days or weeks or months, as I try to put together all the thoughts and tackle all the questions and understand the impact of the experience.
During the opening of the camp, one of the things said was that you learn the most about your country when you’re outside of it, and throughout the entire camp, this just struck me as incredibly true. People were always asking me lots of different questions about Jordan, and there was that part of me that tried so hard to give a representative answer that reflects the majority of the Jordanian society and not just me in my little universe… but eventually I realized that I can’t do this; first of all, I can’t attempt to give a perspective broader than the one I experience, and second, I shouldn’t feel guilty or think that I am not quite entitled to reveal Jordan to the world through my eyes. The best you can do is just share your own experience and your own life with sincerity and honesty. Another thing I realized was how important it is to be politically and socially aware… which is something I always pick on my sisters about! Sadly there are lots of young people in Jordan who don’t read the daily newspaper, and if they do then they’d mostly skip the local and international politics… Many are just stuck in a bubble and live in denial to the bigger reality of Jordan!! For a while I guess I was like that, and stepping outside the bubble proved to be frustrating and disturbing at times, but you cannot turn back!!!
There was one time during the camp when I experienced the most brain-picking, thought-provoking conversation I’ve had in so long… well, it was not quite a conversation but an interview, and the question that was put forth time and time again was “Why?” “How come?” Why did I make the choices I made? What was it that made me want to do something different? Why not stay in your bubble? Is my family the average Jordanian family? What is “Typical” in Jordan? Why do I think that I can make any difference?
I can only tell you that I’ve brought back lots of questions with me, and as tiring as it might be for my brain, I am very excited about this new quest to understand myself and where I am and what role it played in shaping me to be the person I am today.
Throughout the camp I got to remember what it is I love doing and what I am passionate about… I guess the challenge lies in not allowing myself to simply forget it now and fall back into the quick-paced rhythm of daily life, fitting into pre-defined paths and patterns!! I also realized how amazingly rich and vibrant our culture is, and how much I want to immerse myself in it and preserve its character.
Wow! I am actually in the mood to write on and on… but I guess I should just do it in separate posts. I am sure that I will keep on writing and reflecting for some time to come. I still have to tell you about the incredible beauty of the place, about running and swimming in the freezing ocean water, about our activities, about our wonderful Arab cultural night, about volunteering in the kitchen
about my impressions and observations on Northern Ireland, about the interesting things we’ve done, plus bits and pieces of random thoughts.
Look out for lots of pictures to come your way in the next couple of days (I personally took over a thousand)… but for now I’ll leave you with these two; the first is the sunset from the plane to Belfast, and the second is yours truly during the cultural marketplace presentations – never mind the shoes though!!!